I do not have a ton to say today. It has been a bit of a rough week for me. Not just for the incontinence either just a rough week.
One thing that did happen this week was actually at work. I was closing up with a co worker. She and I have talked medical stuff in the past so she knows I have some incontinence issues. But the other day she asked some questions about it. Like how severe it was and things like that. So I gave her a little bit more information on it. She wanted to know if I had to wear protection all the time. I told her I did. She then asked if I had to wear a full on diaper or not. I told her yes. She felt really bad about it. I went on to explain to her that I get kinda embarrassed at times about the diapers at work. We have to let them check our bags before we leave as a stealing prevention. So they have seen the diapers. She said that it is no big deal, that so many people have it. I have never had anyone say anything about it when they have checked my bags. So I am slowly not as embarrassed about it.
Right now I am getting frustrated at myself for not making it to the potty to go poo. Sometimes I just deal with it and other times it makes me very upset. Lately it is the later. I woke up from a nap the other day and had a mess. I was mad because I was only asleep for a little while. I felt that I should have made it to the bathroom. And one other time a couple days ago I noticed I had to go, so I ran to the bathroom. Just as I shut the door It happened. I just burst into tears. It just defeated me. I cried for a while on the phone to my Boyfriend. He is so supportive of me though. He told me that it was ok that I did not make it. It just happens that way sometimes he said. Once I was done crying I cleaned up and went on with my night.
So I do talk a lot about keeping a happy attitude and not letting it get you down. But once in a while it is okay to be upset about it. Things happen and life goes on. I try to not be sad or depressed about my accidents they are a part of my life. I just hate when they happen like it did the other day.
So my motto today is keep you chin up because shit happens.
One thing that did happen this week was actually at work. I was closing up with a co worker. She and I have talked medical stuff in the past so she knows I have some incontinence issues. But the other day she asked some questions about it. Like how severe it was and things like that. So I gave her a little bit more information on it. She wanted to know if I had to wear protection all the time. I told her I did. She then asked if I had to wear a full on diaper or not. I told her yes. She felt really bad about it. I went on to explain to her that I get kinda embarrassed at times about the diapers at work. We have to let them check our bags before we leave as a stealing prevention. So they have seen the diapers. She said that it is no big deal, that so many people have it. I have never had anyone say anything about it when they have checked my bags. So I am slowly not as embarrassed about it.
Right now I am getting frustrated at myself for not making it to the potty to go poo. Sometimes I just deal with it and other times it makes me very upset. Lately it is the later. I woke up from a nap the other day and had a mess. I was mad because I was only asleep for a little while. I felt that I should have made it to the bathroom. And one other time a couple days ago I noticed I had to go, so I ran to the bathroom. Just as I shut the door It happened. I just burst into tears. It just defeated me. I cried for a while on the phone to my Boyfriend. He is so supportive of me though. He told me that it was ok that I did not make it. It just happens that way sometimes he said. Once I was done crying I cleaned up and went on with my night.
So I do talk a lot about keeping a happy attitude and not letting it get you down. But once in a while it is okay to be upset about it. Things happen and life goes on. I try to not be sad or depressed about my accidents they are a part of my life. I just hate when they happen like it did the other day.
So my motto today is keep you chin up because shit happens.